Fessing up on a Friday. Confession #183

Well, on Friday night I broke the news that I am a sex-blogger living in an open marriage and writing a book about it... to my mother.

She reacted better than I had anticipated. She wasn't completely shocked that Hubby and I would enter into the lifestyle of open marriage, although she questions how long it is sustainable. And she wasn't too surprised that I was writing a blog or a book about it. After all, she knows that I am a writer, and if there is anyone who has always encouraged Sadie to write down her stories, it's her mother.

What did take her aback, however, was the little piece of me that she never would have suspected. The aspect of my personality and life that I have, up until now, hid only from her ~that I am bi-sexual.

But, after the initial shock wore off (it didn't take long) she settled into the ideas of all that I had just thrown at her and she realized that everything made sense now. It answered questions she had not realized she had and it put the proverbial puzzle pieces in their respective places.

I can't decide if it was a good idea to tell her about it all. It feels very much like when I was 17 and having sex (often) with my boyfriend, she found out about it and took me to the gyno to get on the pill. She had that same worried expression on her face Friday night as she did then. That, I'm your mother, it's my job to be worried about the decisions you make when they have inherent risks involed, kind of expression.

So, we'll see how it goes. We are preparing to delve into the Thanksgiving festivities which will hopefully shift any focus off of me and Hubby, who arrives here Wednesday night, and onto the holiday itself.

And, for now I will keep on with the keeping on. I am just about to shower and ready myself for a lunch date, who just so happens to be the very same boyfriend that my mother helped me get on the pill for oh so many years ago. I haven't seen him since I married Hubby 12 years ago. He came to our wedding and promptly disappeared out of my life. Today we will reunite over lunch and most likely cocktails, which will serve to ease any awkwardness that will probably be present.

And, of course, I'll let y'all know how that goes, too.