I am struggling with how I feel about Charles this morning.
He has been, in his word "incommunicado" pretty much ever since I moved.
And, it makes me sad. In fact, it's breaking my heart. I thought we were friends.
Logically, I know that there is more to our relationship than just friendship. We were lovers and confidantes who always had a soft place to fall. My moving disabled the physical connection we shared, but he has cut off all of the other aspects of it.
But irrationally, perhaps dictated by my emotional investment in Charles, I am more than just sad. I am angry that he has cut me out of his life. And, I want to tell him this, but I feel that I don't really have the right. Charles is a married man, with a life of his own, and one that he is struggling to keep afloat as it is. He certainly doesn't need silly Sadie whining about why she is upset with him.
So, I will vent my frustrations here. Thank you for listening.
Now, back to more interesting topics : Squirting, anyone?
Stay tuned.
2 comments:
patience and time. you will communicate again. Letting go can be rough. He thinks of you, maybe it's too intense for him. Sometimes you just disappear in order to deal with life. But I'm sure you are in his thoughts. what to do in the meantime? that i can't tell ya. But what you feel is Real and you are just swimming in the depths right now. Sadie, take a break and come up for air.
A quick astrology break...last weekend 2 planets had major shifts (Pluto and Jupiter). they are moving FORWARD now. Finish the job.
your pal
niko
p.s. please elaborate on the squirting;)
Thank you Niko. I shall now refer to you as my "virtual rock". You are always there for me with a kind word, good advice and a thoughtful astrology reading. Scmoochies!!! ~ Sadie
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